Rescued From Self Destruction - Found Love in Jesus!
Before I Received Christ I Lived and Thought This Way
Before I came to know Christ my life was plagued by drugs, vulgar language, criminal acts, and all sorts of destructive behavior. My life was filled with feelings of inadequacies, abandonment, aloneness. Life was not a happy place for me. I had no feelings of love, being loved or even feeling I was worthy of love. Nightly I would sob and cry and pray for death to release me from my misery and sufferings. I was angry, bitter, resentful, self-destructive in my thinking and actions.
How I Received Christ
I had made a vow early in my 20's that God used to bring me home to Him. I vowed never to set foot in a church again-- unless asked by a woman! So God brought a woman into my life for the 1st time ever. This woman asked me to join her in a church. God even used her to pick the church. That is how I found Jesus. (So be careful what you swear or vow, for God will hold you to it.)
After I Found Christ These Changes Took Place
I started to feel much better about myself and I found myself no longer praying for death, but looking at the new lease I had on life. I started seeing what love was all about. I see it in media (movies, t.v., etc.), in how we care for pets, in our friendships, in just about everything. Sometimes I still feel the aloneness and sorrowful regrets of my past, but they no longer overwhelm me like they had. Yes, things are getting better and maybe someday I will experience love for myself and maybe even find myself married and with a family. Jesus brought hope to the hopeless when he came and rescued me from myself, my emotions, and my past.
Favorite Verse: II Corinthians 10:7 Look at what is before your eyes. If you are confident that you belong to Christ, remind yourself of this, that just as you belong to Christ, so also do we.